i just woke up from 3 different horrible nightmares, and my eyes feel like i've been crying all night..
my first nightmare was horrible. for some reason i believe i was in switzerland..but my friends from america were there. my sister, collin and i *i believe it was these 3. were kidnapped by these 3 guys and they wouldn't let us go. we were in their car and i kept struggling to get us out. i was at one point hanging out of the car and i kept KEYING it for some reason, thinking that would help us. when the police come they don't believe our story at all. they believe the guys's story that we were trying to sexually molest them! i had written a note, because they forced me to, that said "I WANT YOU" in all caps. they told the police i forced them to write it.
i kept telling the police and my parents to look at their necks because i kept hitting them. one guy told the police that he was "raking leaves" and hurt himself. no one would listen to me and everyone believe in those guys until...i said. "wait. give me a piece of paper and tell him to write I WANT YOU in all caps". the guy attempted to do so, but his handwriting obviously differed from what was on paper.
the cops finally start listening to my side of the story...
2nd nightmare..
i was at some party and all of a sudden these guys raid the party and start shooting at us. i knew it wasn't going to be painful because they were fake bullets, but the guys started beating up everyone. before someone got to me, i hid under a blanket and found some excuse to leave the party. for some reason they let me! i even went back to get my little red north face backpack..
this is going to sound ridiculous when i'm fully awake.
3rd part of the nightmare..
i have a friend from CT that was my best friend in highschool. she got into college but her family didn't want to pay for it. so her life started going downhill...she got into trouble, she lived in the ghetto in Hartford and started sleeping with random guys..
i think she comes up in my dream because her counselor called me yesterday out of the blue and left a message. it's nice to know sonia is alive, i had no clue. we haven't spoken for over a year.
anyhow so in my dream, after the abduction and those guys trying to kidnap me..i remembered that sonia was there. she was either there at the party or saw what happened. she wouldn't tell the truth as a witness. i called her at her correctional institute and pleaded with her, not understanding why she would do such a thing. she blows up at me saying how i never helped her get out of jail, how i was spoiled..etc...i start crying. i think this dream has to do with the fact that i DO feel spoiled, and that i've had such an easy life. i DID try to help her, i lent her $2000 in highschool to buy a car in order to get a job. that car ended up dying on her 3 months later. i've never seen a cent, and nor do i expect it anymore.
that was more a part of the first dream.
the 3rd nightmare..
my mom and i were walking by a lake together. it was the lake in the backyard of my home in switzerland. we walked by peter won and his gf (not quite sure who she was, but she was lying on the ground and yapping his ears off). i was tempted in my dream to turn around and form the "yadda yadda she talks so much" sign with my hand.
my mom and i continue walking and on the right i see this nice hotel. people are on the balcony dancing and i see this couple who's really into each other. the guy is dancing on the OTHER side of the balcony for some reason, and i realize it's dangerous but he seems ok..then the girl climbs over and they stand on top of the 1st floor balcony's roof (does that make sense)? the guy slips and falls, he falls through the 1st floor's glass, and through more glass. i don't see anything from the basement view. then the girl slips.
for some reason someone calls downstairs and i hear that they died.
i feel guilty for i had the chance to yell at them to be careful.
in my dream i start crying again..
ok off to work all day :(
